Mother's Day

It has taken me a long time to get around to writing this post.  I had thought about writing it several times, but I just couldn't find the words.  It's not that I didn't want to, nor that I was forbidden, but it was, and is, because how can this experience be put into words?

This past Sunday was Mother's Day, and as I sat in church listening to the speakers honouring mothers everywhere, my mind went to my earthly mother and what I would say about her if I were asked to speak.  Then I began thinking of a teaching of Brigham Young about our first mother Eve, and as I sat there contemplating his teaching, my mind opened and I was corrected on my understanding of our Mother Eve.

It was shocking to me to learn that I had thought so poorly of her and Adam all these years.  I did not think as I had often heard from others, that Mother Eve and Father Adam transgressed and were removed from the Garden thereby bringing sin and suffering into the world.  That is just foolishness and such a shallow, wicked description of our first earthly parents.  But my thoughts had been that leaving the Garden had been a necessary part of the plan, and that was understandable and acceptable to me.  But what bothered me most was how they did it, or rather, how I thought they did it.  Owing to the false teachings, or perhaps I should say my misunderstanding of generations old teachings, I was under the false impression that Adam and Eve had betrayed each other.

Although, nothing could be further from the truth of this matter.

Tears flowed down my cheeks, as the scene was unfolded before me.  I learned that Adam loved Eve with a pure love, and Eve loved Adam with a pure love.  There was no enmity there; nor was there any betrayal.  Our mother, the mother of all living, was the most loving creature to ever walk the earth.  I would like to express how events unfolded in the Garden of Eden, but I have neither the eloquence, nor the vocabulary to write it, and so I will leave the subject for the time being, and commend any who read this, and long to know the most fantastic love story ever, to seek it from it's source.

This revelation prepared me for an even more astounding discovery.  On Monday (the 12th) I was reading a blog of a woman whom I respect and admire very much, and her most recent post Honoring my Heavenly Mother Today touched my soul.

I too desired to know of my Heavenly Mother, and so I made it a matter of prayer and took it to God.  And while in the Spirit, our Heavenly Father and His Son stood with me and in the distance, beyond another veil, I could feel a presence.  It was my Heavenly Mother!  As she drew nearer, the veil grew thinner and I could hear her.  "Hear" is the only word I can think of to describe it.  She has a harmonic vibration that resonates from her.

As she drew near to the veil, my heart cried out, NO!  Don't let her see me.

I longed to see her, to be in her presence, but how could I ever contaminate her with my presence.  I knew of nothing, save my filthiness.  I could feel the love emanate from her from beyond the veil, and I was not worthy of that love.  To let my Mother see what I have become was a truly terrifying thought.

I asked Heavenly Father to tell Her that I loved her.  But instantly told him not to use my name.  There was no way that I wanted my filthy name pronounced in her presence, to soil her perfect ears.

But I longed for that love that I could feel emanating from beyond that veil.  I could feel it get stronger and stronger as she approached.  I cannot describe the amount and purity of love that emanates from Her, but I can say that standing between Heavenly Father and the Saviour is bliss, and our Heavenly Mother's presence exceeds them both.  I felt that if she were to show Herself in Her full glory, I would instantly disintegrate.

I couldn't take it any more.  I had to be in her presence, no matter the cost.  

Then in the most sweetest mercy, my Mother and Father and others, laid their hands upon my head.

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I am so very sorry for ever saying, thinking, feeling, or doing anything against Mother Eve.  And I will stand as a witness for Her and Her love for us forever. 

I learned so many things.  Things that I cannot figure out how to even relate.  I have tried several times to write a simple sentence, but it just isn't working.  I cannot do it justice.  So I will try my best to describe one last thought and tell all who read this, go to God for clarification.

Our Heavenly Mother is the most loving person to ever have walked this earth.  She is the Mother of all Creation.  She is Love.  She is the source from which all life flows.  And all Her daughters are destined to be as She is.

To the men, I say, don't you dare say anything about Her daughters.  It is your destiny, your highest glory to exalt your wives, as our Heavenly Father does.  

See your Heavenly Mother for yourself, and learn in person who she is.

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